went from dudley square to park street down washington street, reminisced, thought about years gone by and memories formed and life passed but mostly lost in virtual reality of ryan. saw wonderful dudley station, browsed teen mags in walgreens, drooled over teen heartthrobs, imagined how it would feel to have had normal adolescence if I wasn;t a fucking homo. saw wonderful beautiful houses and buildings as if for first time, need to be more astute and attentive. need to look up more. on way back from work sat next to this hot mo-ther FUCKER on red line. loud guy, tall, shorts, thick calves, 20's hot loud american. wanted him to fuck me right there. touched me lightly, felt like electricity going through body. bet has huge dick, bet fucks around a lot. bet has massive pecs, thick manhood. bet groans when fucking.

nice autumn day, life better looking when seen through lens of unreality, fiction, parallel realities