My babies,

I feel so fortunate I have at least this outlet to communicate with someone. On Sundays, I can never help feeling a special sense of isolation and loneliness, especially on a special day like today when I walked around H square and saw all those wonderful young couples holding hands and saw all those wonderful handsome young men, with their blond hair and their young bodies and their smiing faces and their young girlfriends, smiling, being happy, enjoying life, full of light and full of life and I, on the other hand, all alone, as I've always been, as I'm afraid I'll always be, kind of like looking at life from the outside, as if a spectator and not a participant.

I saw two young men in the prime of their youth performing outside the ABP at H square, so wonderful, so lovely, so young...