I am trying to cope with the fct that once again my life and my future and my career depend on the laziness of a few imbeciles who can't do their job right. I vowed to myself never to let this happen to me again and if it does I don't know what I'll do. I will just have to wait and see what happens this week. I went to the movies and saw the 'Reader' - it was wonderful. Now I'm back home and doing the work that's been piling up over the last few weeks. Cahnges are always so stressful.. As far as my social anxiety goes, I now have to master the ability to carry on, initially brief, conversations with other people while having my glasses on. I will have to visualize that in my brain and then find the strength to do it. Being shy makes a person feel so inferior, so unworthy and impoverishes one's life so much. People who don't have it must not know what I'm talking about...You don't know how lucky you are! I'm sure you have your own set of problems (or not), but this is very restricting. But I've made great changes in myself, I've worked on myself because at some point I realized the change was not going to come from an outside source - I would have to make it happen by working on myself. These past few years have taught me that, if nothing else; how responsible we are for our own destiny and how little we should rely on others for our happiness.